From My Presence in My beloved Thia’s journal—A dialog between thia/Basilia and Master Yahuwah/ Yahushua!
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Tuesday, May 05, 2015 at 9:15 am
Father? It is obvious that You will prevail over our wicked selves! I find myself at the present moment in a very strange situation—perhaps in neutral grounds.
I have no desire to talk to anyone not even to Ahmad. I fear to imagine or speculate or question anything! I know that You are at work but I do not want to think at all!
It seems that my whole being is in neutral gear! Still as if dead! Yet, there is no fear or dread—only an strange kind of peace!
You must be holding me closer than ever before to Your bosom for my own protection from my wicked self! Hold me Father! Don’t let go of me least I destroy my own self!
Tuesday, May 05, 2015 at 2:53 pm
I wait on You my Father! Your silence is unbearable but I refuse to doubt that You are with me! It’s 3:53 pm and I just got the shocking news of the death of four girls first cousins of Ahmad!
I don’t understand it my Father? What are You telling us all? When I got the news about Cory You comforted me. Yet in this situation I find no comfort nor an inkling of understanding?
Tuesday, May 05, 2015 at 9:21 pm
Woke up almost an hour ago but I am going back to bed! Sleep evades me at the moment but still hope for more that I need! It’s now 11:58 pm and I am awake but still sleepy!
Wednesday, May 06, 2015 at 12:03 am
I do not know what to do with myself but whatever it is that will happen today I know that it will be in Your perfect plan for me! On this midnight hour I offer You my prayer of thanksgiving!
Wednesday, May 06, 2015 at 4:20 pm
O my Father, here I am waiting? I have been immersed in reading a good story to withstand this waiting period. Waiting is not an easy thing to do and You know it my Father! I finish the story. What to do now? There is silence! Not a single indication of when am I to leave?
You know that I was prepared to leave last Monday and here I am is Wednesday already and I am still waiting for that phone call to give me the word to leave!
Thursday, May 07, 2015 at 1:05 am
Father? Where are You? I am lost in uncertainty! I am tasting the bitter cup of loneliness & isolation! I can’t find my way to You! Come to my aid, O my Beloved Master, come!
My times are in Your hands! To You alone I have given to rule & control my being! To You alone I owe the complete submission of my being!
It is Your right to assign the care of my earthly life to whomever and I thank You for those that You have assigned such task! I plead my Father to give them understanding of my physical needs!
I am weary from the lack of understanding from those that I trust You have placed in my path of life to take care of me, do they not know the harshness of their silence when I am in this awful state of waiting?
I am weary of calling & whining! I am weary of begging for their concern for what I am going through. I am weary of my unwanted concern for what they are going through.
Hardly any of my attempts to communicate with those that I care the most has availed and I am weary of this miserable situation of my life! It is of no use to reach out to others—they do not respond!
In my despair for the lack of communication I decided to read a best seller book that was gifted to me.
That book magnetized me for better than a day, I couldn’t put the book down!
There is no use to indulge in the exquisite morsels of pleasure that this world can hand to us in the many pages of best sellers books—those morsels only debilitate the strength of our spiritual beings!
Perhaps such is the reason why I am now experiencing this agonizing low spiritual condition after reading that book—one of my favorite best seller author of my former days!
But as I read the last page and came down to reality I found myself lost and at the portal of a forbidden yet beckoning zone wondering if I should get another book?
Where are You my Father? Where are You? It is through others that You manifest Yourself to us, but there is no one, or is there? Open my eyes to see You in the few that care for me! Let me not take them for granted!
Thursday, May 07, 2015 at 3:49 am
Thursday, May 07, 2015 at 9:45 am
Thanks my Father for bringing me back to the fountain of life in Your written words! Again You have granted me Your victory, Your favor, Your love, Your peace, Your joy, and Your matchless, unbroken companionship!
I have nothing to fear! I can now resume the task You have assigned unto me! All things are under Your perfect control and in spite of all of our human blunders You work all things for our good!
I am now secured in the knowledge that You have reserved for me the perfect apartment among the neighbors of Your choice for this moment of time.
It’s all a matter of Your perfect timing! Yes, as a human being I am quick to point my finger at Ahmad for not getting me situated as quickly as I demanded for him to do at any cost!
Even so, You have kindly brought me out of my human carnal demands and empowered me to act with Your wisdom instead of my wicked feelings! Thanks my Father!
I remain in awe of Your doings in my life and the life of all of my concern!
In silence I worship You!
His love in my heart for all, thia/Basilia