Journal—An ongoing dialog between thia/Basilia and Master Yahuwah/Yahushua. …
Wednesday, January 4, 2017 at 9:39 pm
O my Father—O Father of mine? Why the altercations? Why the unnecessary problems? Why do we hurt the ones that are closest to our hearts?
Pause. Reflect. O thiaBasilia—O child of My heart, one answer to your 3 questions: Because you want to control one another. Such is the human nature. You are human. Even so, I am now in control of your human nature as per your own volition.
O thiaBasilia—O child of My heart? I am your Portion. I am your Father. I am your Husband—your Keeper. I will never ever leave nor forsake you. I have established your steps. I have promised much riches & wisdom to you. Just a little while longer for you to see the fulfillment of My promises to you. I am delighted with your faithfulness in the face of despair. Go now to bed. Rest, O thiaBasilia—O child of My heart, rest underneath My everlasting arms.
In silence, I worship You!
Thursday, January 5, 2017 at 4:01 am
Thanks, O my Father—O Father of mine, thanks. Several hours of fretful sleep. Painful moment. Going through a cleansing of my body. Thanks for cuddling me underneath Your everlasting arms while it all is taking place.
Because of Your cuddling I woke up quite sober and thoughtful. For the cleansing is going on in my soul as well as in my body. Musing while I took care of the chores You led me to take care of. I came to the computer. I recorded the date & time. I recorded my thanks and? “Check your emails” came to me.
Check. Umb…email from Pat? Opened it up. Hum! Nothing from Pat except the draft I never sent. Let me delete it! Stop! Copy & paste it first. OK. Go to MS Word program. Get blank document. Paste. Read. Wow! This is a perfect expression of what You are leading to write & publish. Alright! How do I begin? How should I introduce this email?
Pause. Reflect. O thiaBasilia—O child of My heart, make it plain. Post the email just like it is now. Later, publish what you recorded the previous day and have not yet published.
The reply I never sent to my dearest friend because she ticked me off!
We been through a lot but! Father is in control of it all. I wrote the following email the day you sent me a reply with your comment about me buying a heater instead of honey as the money was meant to be for. I did not send it. Why? It was not time to send it. It is now time. Even more, it will be posted for the benefit of many. For it follows into place with what is happening in our world and what Father is doing with it.
The carnal self always wants to have the last word. Am I having the last word? Spare me the gruesome details. Whether your last word or mine, got nothing to do with nothing. Who cares? The fact is that we have to live with our carnal self. We are so ridiculous. Why tell me about my carnal self? why accuse me? O yes, I know you have the ‘right’ excuse for all your doings. It does not matter. None of your answers matter.
I do not call you to get such stupid remarks. I call you to share how Father takes care of my carnal self’s struggles to control myself and everybody else. If you feel threatened by my doings, that’s your prerogative. No need to continue sharing. We are only blowing smoke. No spiritual benefit. My carnal self gets offended but! His nature in me causes me to see how my carnal self gets not only offended but also angry, disgusted, discouraged, frustrated, Why? Because I do not want to see anyone jealous, envious, competitive, judgemental always pleading to be good, always claiming to know.
I refuse to know anything! I told you all that! So, what’s for me to do about it? Recognize it. Expose it. The sooner I recognize & expose it? that’s the minute the nature of our Father shines forth. You don’t believe me? Your carnal reasoning no longer matters. Think whatever you want to think. Make your own deductions. Whatever you approve, disapprove, agree or disagree I could care less! I do not need any of it! That’s honest anger. Because you are attacking the Father’s nature in me! You are challenging me to doubt the integrity of my confessions. You are challenging me to confuse His nature in me with my wicked carnal nature. Father knows it. He is my Vindicator. May He bless you with an insight of that sickening ‘politeness’ that so disgusts not only me but anyone that has any sense of being real & genuine.
No need for me to hear sweet & sickening reason from anyone’s wicked carnal nature. I am angry but I am also glad to see things for what they are without losing one smidgen of my trust & confidence in Him. On the contrary, each challenge to my integrity doubles that trust & confidence that He is working all things together for our good.
As per instructions, on my way to online and post. Perhaps later on today. Perhaps tomorrow. I don’t know. Whenever Father leads me to post & publish, I will do.
His love in my heart for all, thiaBasilia.